Thank you Lord that your word is a double-edged sword. It shows us both sides of a situation. It shows us our side and God's side. What I mean by that is simple. I was in prayer today asking God to give me strength to love those in my life who have hurt and lied on me. And I asked Him, How am I Suppose to love this person for everything they have done to me. Their disobedience, hurtful words, nasty looks, betrayal...and the list goes on. Here is what God showed me. He showed me how many times I've hurt Him, denied Him and been disobedient to Him. At first, I was comparing God's relationship with Jesus and saying to him "You don't know what this is like, to have a child that hates you, that backtalks you... Jesus was obedient to you, he never sinned. So what could you possible know about what I am dealing with right now? Wow, he let me vent and get that out, and then he was saying "are you done yet??? I am your Father, and look at all the times you disobeyed me. Lied on me, took my name in vain, sold yourself our for a simple pleasure that would never last or buy you eternal peace. Yet, I love you, in fact I called and wanted you, I adopted you, knowing what you would do that would hurt me and be like a slap in the face to me. But I chose you anyway.
Be honest with yourself...If you knew ahead of time the torment your kids would have put you through, would you still have elected to have them? What if you were able to go to a fertility fortune teller before having your children and they said to you, " Well, your first child is going to push you to the limit, push every button, frustrate you beyond what you thought you could bare. You will have a radid growth of grey hairs, chest pain, bouts of depression, anxiety and crying; and days of just wanting it be over. But the good news is that your 2nd and 3rd children will be sweet and kind, compassionate and they will listen to you most of the time and it would pretty much be a joy and a pleasure to raise them. Do you still want them?
You see what we don't know and don't understand is that our Father in heaven gets this "snapshot" like a movie preview in heaven, before he births us in the earth. He knows every scene of our lives. He knows how we will react, the choices and mistakes we will make. He knows it all ahead of time, and he still chooses us. He chose us not because we are perfect and obedient and good children all the time, but because He is a good father all the time. A good father, loves their children inspite of the behavior. His love is never based on circumstance or behavior. He is just, fair, never changing and unyielding.
That is what God showed me today. If you could rewind the hands of time and go to a fertitlity fortune teller, would you?
Thank you Father for showing me my imperfections and allowing me to see you still love me, inspite of me. Your love is perfect at all times. Thank you for showing me how to love those who are imperfect, just like me. Give me more of you today. Thank you for giving me a glimpse of your heart today. Continue to lead me and guide me. Thank you for your rod and your staff for they comfort me. Thank you for your grace and mercy that are made new each day. I am a better mother today for having spent time with you and learning from you. You already watched the movie of my life and you wrote the ending. I trust you as the producer and director of my life, that my movie will end the way you intended it.
